Tuesday, March 23, 2010

A proud prostitute but a silent prostitute

I'm enjoying being a prostitute, I find it interesting and unusual and I feel like it gives me insight into strange and wondrous worlds. I also feel like it stops me from disintegrating into the hum-drum averageness of a mundane life (a great fear of mine). But I can't share this with anyone. I guess that is where the blog comes in. There are wonderful people in my life who, when they say "what did you get up to on the weekend?" I'd like to answer fully, honestly, openly, have a bit of a laugh and move on. But that can't happen. I'm a whore and that's not normal... or acceptable.

It's kind of annoying in many respects, but it is part and parcel of the job. I am grateful that I have Dorian close by to chat to, and Amazon only an email away. An excellent example is recently I got a really great review on New Zealand Adult Forums. I was utterly delighted, I have never read a written review of my sexual performance before. The reviewer was wonderful in that he gave away enough practical details to be accurate but left enough out that my identity and an air of mystery remained intact. I was so excited I emailed the full review to both Amazon and Dorian. But I can't post it on facebook or print it out for my mum to stick on the fridge. I guess forced anonymity keeps me humble in a way.

I take great pride in my job and really, really want to deliver fantastic service, but sometimes it's hard to tell if you are really reaching each individual customer on their level. I know you can't please all the people all the time, but I want to be the best I can be for each client. I do some things better than others, I'm great at providing the 'girlfriend experience' and I'm not so good at providing the 'pornstar experience' which means I'm good at listening, smiling and making eye-contact. I'm not so brilliant at athletic fucking or talking dirty. The latter I'm working on. The Em & Lo blog used to have a really good post on dirty talk suggestions, they used to have a massive amount of really good posts that got lost when they changed their URL. Oh well at least there are places like about.com for dirty talking basics. Yep, even a pro has to look it up sometimes.

Talking about blogs, I really enjoy reading Cocaine Girl, a very human, very raw, very honest account from a London prostitute, writer, and junkie. I admire her and at the same time I want to save her, and then I criticise myself for wanting to save her as I know there would be many people who would not think my lifestyle choices are my own and would want to save me from myself. I also like a blog called Courtesan: luxuriant woman which has a variety of rather poetic resources, but can be a bit too media-heavy for my little computer to handle.

Did I mention I got a fantastic client review on an adult forums site?

8 comments:

  1. Congratulations on the affirming comments! Always good to know what you are doing in whatever manner brings happiness.
    'Athletic fucking' eh? Hmmm, running and fucking? Weightlifting and fucking? Pole vaulting and fucking?
    Please do explain that one lol.
    Congratulations once more

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  2. This is a very insightful post. Speaking for myself, I've been a prostitute on and off (mostly on) for quite a while, and I feel the same pride in my work. And thank you for the kind words about my blog, Courtesan: luxuriant woman! :)

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  3. Thanks lovely bloggers.

    xXx

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  4. Hello Lucy!

    Congrats on the excellent review!

    I have been following your blog religiously for months. I find you very intrguing and insightful. It's truely amazing that you can balance 'normal' life with your 'night' life, and do so with such anonymity. I can only imagine how difficult it can be to not burst and tell about it to your close friends or family. I feel like I am living vicariously through you every time you write.

    P.S. I would be interested in reading your review - if you are ever up for posting the link to it.

    Thank you again,

    Facinated in the S.L.U.T.

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  5. What is wrong with being an average and normal person? Why would you fear that? ( just out of curiosity)

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  6. Hello Anon,

    Thanks for the congratulations, and thanks for the complements, I'm tickled pink.

    There is nothing my ego would like more than to post the full review, but I had to choose between revealing the website: http://www.adultforums.co.nz/ or quoting the review. But let me give you some of my favourite words:

    smile, friendly, lovely, body, firm, toned, creamy, smooth, touch, responsive, enjoy, recommend, lovely

    :-)

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  7. Hello other anonymous,

    Good question, I don't know why I fear averageness. I guess I just want to be different, even if it is anonymous. Maybe I'm afraid to stagnate, to not move forward to stop thinking about new things, challenging myself and becoming old and boring. ...Although I don't fear aging.

    I'll think about it and hopefully give you a better answer at some point.

    X Lucy

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  8. Dear Lucy,

    I liked very much your article. I personally think that comfort women as you deserve all our admiration and gratitude, as they are incredibly generous when providing intimate wellbeing by sharing their most precious and intimate treasure with such detachement and will to comfort. Beyond defying our very wrong misconceptions and unfair discrimination, I would like to better understand your motivations, personal reward, self realization and self esteem enrichment you get from your profession and from the interaction with your customers. Cheers, Gabriel.

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